Mer Prose

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  • Heavenly Creature 🌈

    Heavenly Creature 🌈


    Back city roads
    Right, right, left
    accident on the highway
    traffic diverted,
    again

    2020
    memory of a youth
    gone too soon
    our butterfly 
     of orange
    glow for your soul

    turn black
    as we lost 
    your vibrant 
    rainbow, my friend 

    the chaos
    around us
    ignored by our connection
    that night
    you saw me, you saw me

    dinner in the city
    the buzz of the others
    falling drunken 
    yelling loudly

    we sat quiet
    what was the chance
    side by side
    they seated us,
    circumstance

    of different generations
    spirit sisters
    activate 

    time stood still
    in my heart, my friend 
    creative outlet
    big hearted
    rebels of such
     
    shut out for the same
    self expression
    they celebrated
    years later when the 
    money rolled in
    namaste my friend, namaste

  • Resourceful

    Are those who feel guilt
    Too small to make an impact
    on resources, environment, sustainability

    Or are those of us who care keeping ourselves small 
    not using our resources to grow wealth and security

    Can we actually make an impact. Are we one person trickle down, or up. All of our actions compacted to change a society. 

    In a panic, I awake, sleepy disoriented. What time of day is it? A nap, cozy, mid day. Hum of heat pushed through vents, hot water for the shower, roof over head. 
    Yet the kid wants to shop 20 min away. Gas my dear. Doesn’t come cheap. Time equals money. Are you going to pay me. Guilt again not being the mother of his dreams.

  • Professional Growth

    I have a headache today. It’s the formaldehyde that seeped into my personal hair room in the salon I now work out of. The industry is filling shelves with new products that avoid the toxic label, yet when heated to a certain temp they omit formaldehyde.

    Instant headache. That’s the first reaction. Dizzy, nausea, ear pain so intense it feels as though I have an ear infection. Throbbing. Throat scratchy. But that’s not the worst part. Fuzz. My mental state slows down. I can barely comprehend what my client is saying. Barely see what I am doing. Good thing I can do a haircut by feel, I’ve been doing it so long.

    I can’t share my challenge but I warn you it’s exciting! Now in the works. At the moment I can only spread the word. I’d love a chemist to help. I use how I feel as my guide and do my research. Wow Dream Coat is said to have removed DMDM Hydantoin which turns to formaldehyde yet I still have this severe reaction to that product and to a few other smoothing products. Glad I like my frizz.

  • Crush

    Crush

    The suit the tie the smart shoes
    You scared me
    I didn’t hear the sound of those little bells
    boo

    The smile so wide
    the twinkle in your eye
    we laugh light
    and never have I ever felt so seen
    and attractive

    you had me fooled
    the dimple 
    it must have been the dimple
    and ofc that eye twinkle

    early 40’s 
    bachelor
    def not been married
    my wrong

    I called
    you flirted
    we met your office
    vulnerability spilled
    cheeks flushed
    crush

    is exactly the right word
    when I found out the truth
    you hadn’t lied
     you were so honest

    the family the wife
    the separate rooms
    the ties
    why it won’t end
    never so soon

    I put my dignity in my back pocket 

    a hug  a kiss
    against the desk
    remiss

  • Air of Possibilities

    How do we do next
    Dating replaced

    Foodie aside

    a skate
    at the rink
    a hike in the woods
    was the extent of our taste;

    an app
    a cocktail a meal
    til the conversation ran dry

    How do we do next
    dating replaced

    Hold my hand 
    head high
    fill self interest
    ofc

    poetry, curling, bowling 
    yes of all things curling
    movies and rock bands
    the woods
    back to my tree hugging ways

    how do we do next
    dating replaced

    the spring sheds the cocoon
    the butterfly emerges
    the snow melts on the ground
    wings spread
    I fly
    primary colors 
    full force ahead.

  • “You’re too pretty to be home on a Saturday night”

    (literally says mom-)

    English line dancing
    Is anybody in?
    It’s a Saturday at 7
    home couch cuddling 
    with myself 

    mom calls 
    the party just begins
    she’s headed out
    her heals on
    date night card games
    with friends

    but mom 
    it’s heavenly
    the knit blanket
     the quiet
    the ginger lemon tea
    Bridgerton on the screen

    ask the therapist
    is this normal
    she has my birthday
    August Virgo baby
    calm earthy grounded 

    where are those men you’ve been interested in
    they are laying low
    paperwork and Landman
    ready for the next day to begin

  • Hearts Shatter

    Hearts Shatter

    I text and text and text again
    Another message
    Press contact photo 
    hit call
    forwarded to voice mail
    grasping air

    .

    repeat 

    clarity or closure
    or something that resembles either
    a follow up from the 
    need isn’t how much time spent
    “moms on the other line” 
    click

    .

    need is how time is spent
    empathy respect
    hear the dream
    see the vision
    use the damn yoga mat

    .

    in a relationship
    what do those needs mean 
    a google search …
    listening  
    a chance to express
    feelings and opinions

    not met
    a call back
    you do care…
    only voices rise
    fault and blame 
    feel like despise

    hearts shatter

  • Pump Tears

    At the gym
    Extensional crisis

    Pump iron
    Release serotonin 

    Tears stream
    down my face
    I wipe
    in hopes
    no one notices

    who cares
    let it flow
    the pain the tension the 
    lift the claves
    row pull lat scap 

    tear 
    smudge
    continue
    breath breath  
    let it all go