Bloated
Big belly
What happened to being a
Botticelli
take up less space
wisp away
play the way
expectations
shed the tresses
lose the fat
the thoughts and the judgement
dust, hunger lust
therapist says
we see this a lot in
women of your age
running the kids
work and no play
a maid
mommy
and babe
when need be
what’s left
bones and mind fry
I change
take the reign
feed my muscles
fuel thy brain
a belly that’s soft
posture that’s tall
drop the jones’
engage the synapses
ignore the punk
asses
Is love supposed to be
Easy and Joyful
Slipping in like a
breeze
Or awkward and uncomfortable
Habits formed
Single life lead
Is love supposed To Be
Quiet sunshine
Moments of Silence
Breath.
Or loud rumbling sideways thunder
Noisy thoughts in my cluttering head
dread
The middle of the night wake up
Telling me to fear
The unknown man
Only one month ago
Huh, One month!
A dream I hope
Not to wake up
Desired safe passion grounded yet
afloat
You wanted me to be
A broke ass bitch
Easy to manipulate
You wanted me to be
starving and empty
stomached
so you could feed me
You wanted me to be
thigh kissing freely
calming ruffled
feathers
available only when
you need me
You wanted me to be
calling in the am
disappear weekly pm
on your arm on the
weekend
You wanted me to be
ready for seven dinner
sleeping while you
watch tv
out the house Sunday
What about me?
I’m outie!
The value I need
to meet in my man
Exceeds a check list
or well laid plan
time money
sense of self
should go without saying
enough, I’m done
not playing
around
come to me come to me come to
beg pardon plead
respect and what exactly does that mean
breadcrumbs and morsels
keep going please
kind words and security
only
for me
I’m worthy,
I am enough
You do it with grace
He says
Raise three kids
A home, a family
career
what options are there?
I hustle
nights and weekends
til the arm falls off
over worked
exhaustion
smile for the kids
til I can’t anymore
passion for hair
he sees
Rembrandt Picasso Matisse
all in a days work
appointment making
blow drying
taxing
name a few
responsibilities
until
add on the gf effect
to please
attention with morning calls dinner
ill make your life easier
he says
bs I call
living for the long way home
kitchen dancing
theater retreat
god damn, lucky dog lucky dog lucky dog
no, I AM
The Past Stays Here 