First Date Scaries

Haven’t had this feeling
since my first post divorce date
now I’m fifty in

casual conversation
awkward giggles
glint in the eyes

working to impress
the opposite sex
at least for tonight

fake chemistry
the kind that says
well, we met
do we fuck yet

dinner
I O U
he’s says
in a hint

I know I should slap him
people pleaser mode kicks in
the necking in the car
I’m such a tease
I’m sure you want more

home. Safe…
the text he wants the text
we barely know each other
but I text
on high from the dopamine
of a good kiss
meh
tomorrow I’ll wake
I won’t want to know him