First Date Scaries

Haven’t had this feeling
since my first post divorce date
…now I’m fifty in

casual conversation
awkward giggles
glint in the eye

working to impress 
the opposite sex
at least for tonight

fake chemistry
the kind that says 
well, we met
do we fuck yet

dinner
I O U
wink wink 
is that a hint

I want to slap him
But people pleaser kicks in
necking in the car
I tease

Home. Safe
the text 
but we barely know each other yet
dopamine high
from a good kiss
tomorrow I’ll wake
I won’t want to know him.